I am sick constantly

I am sick constantly.

from just a tiny pain bothering me,  to every part of my body aching so badly that I feel like I could just burst from the anguish.  but regardless of how badly I feel,  I realize I live with guilt.  So on top of my symptoms and pain,  I'm beating myself up on the inside. 

I feel guilty cannot be there and active in the lives of my family.  I feel guilty that I barely see my friends and cancel on them.  I feel guilty that my partner has to see me in pain,  deal with the symptoms and my crabby attitude when I am unwell. but I have to let go,  it's not my fault. I'm living with Fibromyalgia.